YOU JUST DON'T WRITE WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE IT: YOU BLEED

It's been ages since I was active writing stuff under the sun. I was too consumed with a lot of things and sometimes I think there's nothing important to write about. Although there are times as well wherein I feel like I wanted to write everything.

Writing, is not an obligation to me. It's more of, an exercise of the mind and my freedom. I feel like to write whenever I had a bad day. Or when I am upset. Or when I am sad. I write because of my emotions raging. Not just because I am not busy.

However, I must use the excuse that I am busy this month (at least in my opinion). I have to focus more at work so that I can reach the targets as early as possible. And I have to focus on a lot of problems at work which is made by yours truly as well.

It is the end of the month and almost the end of the year. Things kept on happening which surprises me. And people still come and go. And there are some persons who suddenly came back out of nowhere. That's when I bleed the most.

I bleed and yearn for a big heart. That after so much sadness, I hope I can still love them as my friends, colleagues or whoever they may be. I yearn for a big heart that after so much hurt, I hope I can still accept them without any fear and anger in my heart.


After all of these, it's gonna be a new year and I am looking forward for a brand new start.

AT THE TOP: BURJ KHALIFA

Dubai holds a lot of the 'est' when it comes to infrastructures. Biggest, largest, tallest. And sure, the tallest building of the world is here. And that's Burj Khalifa.

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Burj Khalifa, tallest artificial structure in the world, stands at 2,722 ft. When I heard that, I was like, 'Oh, it's just another building.' And even when I see it every day, it looks like an ordinary building to me.

Until... I've experience the 'At the Top' last Saturday with a CS friend, Lukas, from CZ.

Tickets can be bought at the counter but like what we do, we booked it online thru the site itself. The cheapest tickets (for Level 124) costs 125 AED. Availability depends on your preferred time of visit. We prefer to be there by 4:30 pm so we could watch sunset as well.

Overlooking Sheikh Zayed Road and Old Dubai
(Copyright photo by Lukas Winter)

Level 124 has a 360-degree view of Dubai. You can see the old part of Dubai (Old Dubai) and the Sheikh Zayed Road and of course the rest of the new part of Dubai (New Dubai). The World (artificial islands), Burj Al Arab, and the Dubai Marina can be seen as well but of course, from the distance.

Everyone seems to wait for the magic hour but I cannot say that Dubai nor At The Top is the best spot to watch sunset. No one can tell if the sun really set already because you cannot see it clearly. But as far as I know, magic hour is still the magic hour.

Business Bay view / Burj Al Arab - Marina is on this side
(Copyright photo by Lukas Winter)

They are selling souvenirs as well from ref magnets, planners, mugs, and of course the miniature figures of the Burj Khalifa. But since I am a sucker for ref magnets, that's the thing I bought.

Ref magnet for 15 AED

It was a wonderful day for me. Not only the building nor the view amazed me but I cannot hide the fact that I was so inspired by the passion of those people behind the iconic tower. They are wearing the pride of success in their sleeves. It was not built by the locals/Emiratis alone, but it was built by a lot of nations, who worked as one for one goal. And that is what you call TEAMWORK.

I admire the building itself. But most of all, it made me love Dubai.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: ACHIEVED!

Who am I before the 50 DAY CHALLENGE?

Craziness is my forte and I realized that I became a monster out of craziness. Distress ate my positive view in life. And I was not aware that I am not myself anymore. I am surrounded by toxic energies and toxic relationships. And soon enough, I became the poison itself. I even lost a love one because I can't handle my own stress and shit. Day after day, everything is a struggle. Work is full of distractions, stress is my best friend, and sleep is just a break.

So last September 14, I pledged to listen to TED talks once a day for 50 consecutive days. I opt for the 21 days only since it's the suggested number of days to create a new habit/routine but I felt that it was too short to change the mindset of a person.

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Here's the list of all the talks that I've listened to:
1) The only person you need to marry - Tracy Mcmillan
2) Is it lust or love? - Terri Ordburch
3) How to stop screwing yourself over - Mel Robbins
4) The slut, spinster & perfect woman - Martha Mosse
5) How to become more confident - Till H. Grob
6) How do you define yourself? - Lizzie Velasquez
7) How being heartbroken was the best thing ever happened to me - Emma Gibbs
8) If you want to achieve your goals, don't focus on them - Reggie Rivers
9) Select the right relationship - Alexandra Redcay
10) Is there scientific proof that we can heal ourselves? - Lissa Rankin
11) Why are we happy? Why aren't we happy? - Dan Gilbert
12) My philosophy for a happy life - Sam Berns
13) Life is easy, why do we make it so hard? - Jon Jandai
14) The psychology of self motivation - Scott Geller
15) How to believe in yourself - Jim Cathcart
16) How to magically connect with anyone - Brian Miller
17) Be the warrior, not the worrier - Angela Ceberano
18) You're already awesome, just get out of your own way - Judson Brewer
19) The art of being yourself - Caroline McHugh
20) The unsexy truth, the hookup culture - Lisa Bunnage
21) Growing up in a pornified culture - Gail Dines
22) If you've had sex, you know how to sell - Mace Horoff
23) Happiness is all in your mind - Gen Kelsang Nyema
24) Meet yourself: A user's guide to building self-esteem - Niko Everett
25) The secret to self-control -  Jonathan Bricker
26) You don't wake up fabulous - Robert Ferrell
27) The happy secret to better work - Shawn Anchor
28) Let's face it, charisma matters - John Antonakis
29) What could be wrong with monogamy? - Marc de Hond
30) How to practice emotional hygiene - Guy Winch
31) How to know your life purpose in 5 minutes - Adam Leipzig
32) The power of defining yourself - Amma Asante
33) Programming your mind for success - Carrie Green
34) Being insecure - Tomas Jech
35) How to lose your self-esteem - Matthew Whoolery
36) Freedom from self doubt - BJ Davis
37) Overcoming hopelessness - Nick Vujicic
38) Why I stopped watching porn? - Ran Gavrieli
39) 10 things you didn't know about orgasm - Mary Roach (skip this - it's absolutely not worth your time, I just read this out of curiosity *defensive I know haha*
40) The habits of happiness - Matthieu Ricard
41) The art of asking - Amanda Palmer
42) Never ever give up - Diana Nyad
43) What you don't know about marriage - Jenna McCarthy
 44) Why some of us don't have one true calling - Emilie Wapnick
45) Draw your future - Patti Dobrowolski
46) Why happy couples cheat? - Esther PErel
47) Looks aren't everything, believe me I'm a model - Cameron Russell
48) Home is a song I've always remembered - Teitur
49) Why I read a book a day and why you should too - Tai Lopez
50) How to find the work you love - Scott Dinsmore

And yes, after 50 consecutive days (this is a late post by the way), I am proud to say that I am successful with my challenge! Congratulations to me! Woooh!!

So who am I now?

I am new. I am healed. Stuff and stress is still there but I know (and I am confident) that I can handle it very well now. I am back to the high-spirited version of myself. And I more focused on my dreams. One thing is for sure, the balance that I've been looking for... I already found it.

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